have been hearing news of ni ming ran's death in the past few days... many people still miss him, no one can accept his death... how selfish is he, to just depart from the world and leave the people still alive to suffer...

your pain when you decide to live this place is just at that very split second yet have you thought how many people on earth have to bear the pain for decades? your wife felt sick, rejects food and sleep... your oldest son lost his best father that he would talk to about almost anything under the sun... your daughter got criticised by people from everywhere while your youngest son had to live in an extraordinary childhood... he's that young, yet had so much hatred...

i thought you were just foolish and didnt thought about anything, i was wrong... you actually thought about your family, yet decided you leave and abandon them to suffer... not forgetting, your friends and your audience! many of your friends had to cry themselves to sleep and the showbiz lost a good comedian like you...

you dont want anyone to grieve over you anymore, but please look around you... do you think it's possible? you no longer bring smile and laughter to people's lives, but that doesnt mean you should bring pain and agony instead... at least, you were still here, facing your problems with your family, it's not so much of a letdown than right now... when the two ladies you loved most had to walk out of the darkness all by themselves... it's just not fair!

life shouldnt have suck, if it had, then you wouldnt have enjoyed those happy times you had... people are talking behind your two loved ones, is it fair to them? now, i only hope you can find your peace and happiness from right this very moment... everyone should be happy, you once brought laughter to us and left us with many precious, happy memories... rest in peace, goodbye forever, ni ming ran...

loved; 2:24 PM